I've been reading both of Bikram's books today and finally reached the passage about "killing yourself," or breaking down the surface "self" to get to the "Self." I like the idea. Mostly because of what's been happening the past few days. A lot of really rough classes followed by two really wonderful experiences yesterday. Felt very secure in a lot of the postures and locked my knee long enough to actually try kicking forward.
Who knows? Maybe I'm on to something, or not. I've enjoyed not worrying so much.